The waves of death surrounded me;
The floods of destruction swept over me.
The grave wrapped its ropes around me;
Death itself stared me in the face.
But in my distress I cried out to the Lord;
Yes, I called to my God for help.
He heard me from his sanctuary;
My cry reached his ears.
He reached down from heaven and rescued me;
He drew me out of deep waters.
He delivered me from my powerful enemies,
From those who hated me and were too strong for me.
They attacked me at a moment when I was weakest,
But the Lord upheld me.
(2 Samuel 22: 5-7, 17-19)
During the time that our family first sensed God putting on our hearts the desire to ask Him for two siblings from Gansu province. I had a dream of a child drowning in deep, dark waters and strong hands appeared to lift that child out to safety. The next morning I read this passage of rescue in 2 Samuel and wrote in the margin of my Bible: 3/31/08-adoption dream.
Last Thursday, two days after our adoption file got “locked” with Ding Yi Fan and Hua Ming An, we received news that Hua Ming An was in the hospital. He had suffered from a sudden and severe brain infection, and had been in a coma for 6 days with high fever and frequent seizures. But there had been improvement the past two days: his fever was down, he was “awake” and there was some movement in his arms and legs.
I remembered this 2 Samuel passage and my dream of a drowning child being rescued. I thought about Hua Ming An in the deep waters of a coma and how God had already reached down from heaven and pulled him from death to life. And over the course of the past three days, since we have been able to visit Hua Ming An in the hospital—seeing him with his eyes open but not responding to what is going on around him—it has been my heart’s cry that God would continue to draw him out of the deep waters he is still in, to bring him back to full consciousness. A cry for rescue.
His sweet little body is on that hospital bed, but so many of his functions have been lost. As we cry out to God, we believe that He can completely restore Hua Ming An—just like He called Lazarus out of the grave when he had been dead for 4 days—but we don’t know yet if that is His plan. Waiting to see how much of him will God bring back to life.
We have been able to visit with some of Hua Ming An’s teachers from the orphanage who have been at the hospital, and they have told us what a smart and helpful boy he was. On Saturday, one of his teachers told us how excited he was after he and Ding Yi Fan met us for the first time. He showed her the crayons we had given to him that day and said, “My future Mom and Dad gave me these.” How we hope that he will one day be able to color again like this drawing he gave us when we first met him.
The past couple of weeks, we have been watching the Lord of the Rings movies (at Jordan’s request). I was especially touched this time by Aragon’s words, when the people of Rohan are fearfully preparing for Saruman’s intimidating army to arrive at Helm’s Deep. He speaks with a young boy who tells him that the people are saying there is no hope. They won’t make it through the night. But Aragorn assures him “There is always hope.”
For us now, when we don’t know what the future holds for Hua Ming An. What kind of recovery he will make. We have the opportunity to turn our waiting into an offering again. It is here, where we don’t want to be, that we must cling tightly to God.
“Waiting on God is an act of faith. The greatest thing ever required of us humans. Not faith in the outcome we are dictating to God, but faith in His character, faith in Himself. It is resting in the perfect confidence that he will guide in the right way, at the right time. He will supply our need. He will fulfill His work. He will give us the very best if we trust Him.” (Elisabeth Elliot)
“To believe that God is writing a bigger story from our lives than we could possibly imagine—that all our past is indeed “Thank you,” and all our future is “Yes.” (Paula Rinehart)
“We’re in no hurry, God. We’re content to linger in the path sign-posted with your decisions.” (Isaiah 26:8 MSG)
Our trust is in God alone—Rescuer. Redeemer. Restorer.
And in Whom there is always hope.